My last Vlogidays video of the year
Last year, I did Vlogmas. This year, I was set on doing Vlogidays. However, as you guys probably know by now, I decided not to continue with it. I know a lot of people probably don't care, and probably haven't even realized that I made this decision, but I did. So I thought I'd give an explanation.
To make a long story short, I was too worried about finals and just emotionally upset about Jon being up in Washington. Then, when he didn't arrive home when I thought he'd be home I was too worried about that. I also didn't hear from him for a week. Until this past Friday, when I finally got in touch with him and found out he'd gotten in a car accident while trying to drive back home because there was ice on the roads.
I was devastated that it happened, relieved that he was, for the most part, okay, and angry that no one had told me. We've been together for around a year and a half now. We live together. And no one told me. He could have died, and I would have never known for sure.
Then, the next morning after hearing from Jon and making the decision to stop Vlogidays, I get a call from my sister. Who had also just gotten in an accident right before she called me. She, too, was okay but her car was not.
So I've decided that I'm just not in the right emotional or mental state to continue with Vlogidays. I love sharing my life with whoever cares to watch or read, but it just felt wrong to act so normal on camera every day, while it felt like my head was constantly spinning.
It's much easier for me to write about things than it is to say them out loud, so I thought it'd be best to explain in a blog post as opposed to a vlog. It's more often that I get personal on my blog than my vlogs anyways. I'm thinking about whether or not I'll continue the month with "Blogidays" instead, but we'll see. If anything, I should be going back to keeping my blog pretty updated anyways.
I'm kind of just drained from school and life. I'm feeling really low right now, so if you have any advice for a pick-me-up, please feel free to share!
To make a long story short, I was too worried about finals and just emotionally upset about Jon being up in Washington. Then, when he didn't arrive home when I thought he'd be home I was too worried about that. I also didn't hear from him for a week. Until this past Friday, when I finally got in touch with him and found out he'd gotten in a car accident while trying to drive back home because there was ice on the roads.
I was devastated that it happened, relieved that he was, for the most part, okay, and angry that no one had told me. We've been together for around a year and a half now. We live together. And no one told me. He could have died, and I would have never known for sure.
Then, the next morning after hearing from Jon and making the decision to stop Vlogidays, I get a call from my sister. Who had also just gotten in an accident right before she called me. She, too, was okay but her car was not.
So I've decided that I'm just not in the right emotional or mental state to continue with Vlogidays. I love sharing my life with whoever cares to watch or read, but it just felt wrong to act so normal on camera every day, while it felt like my head was constantly spinning.
It's much easier for me to write about things than it is to say them out loud, so I thought it'd be best to explain in a blog post as opposed to a vlog. It's more often that I get personal on my blog than my vlogs anyways. I'm thinking about whether or not I'll continue the month with "Blogidays" instead, but we'll see. If anything, I should be going back to keeping my blog pretty updated anyways.
I'm kind of just drained from school and life. I'm feeling really low right now, so if you have any advice for a pick-me-up, please feel free to share!
Keep each other safe, keep faith,
Mo
Mo